31 Days to Live Like it's Your Last: Day 2

31 days To Live Like it''s Your Last: Day 2

The last few days have been trying with my sons.  I haven't been in the enjoyment mode.  I'm in the lets just survive today and maybe tomorrow will be better frame of mind.  Today they seem to be a bit better.  We are still struggling but the load feels lighter.  I'm sitting here thinking about how I can't go through another day like I have been.  I can't keep up this pace I'm losing my sanity.  Now here I am writing about what would I do if it were my last day today.  Is this who I want my children to remember me as?  Is this how I want them to think on me for years?  Do I want them to think that they had made me so upset that there is no way I could love them when I passed?  Yes I am upset I'm roaring like a lion and I'm making them spend time in their beds.  I'm hoping a resting time will answer their unrest but I don't want to be roaring.  I don't want to upset them.  So if this was my last day how can I salvage it?  How can I grasp it and live it even though it's tough?

I'm going to start by getting off of here.  I'm going to go in their room and help them clean it up.  We are going to enjoy breakfast together even cook it together because we love to cook together.  I'm going to spend some time curled up and read them some more of Treasure Island and I'm going to break through their disobiedience by loving them through it instead of roaring.  Today I'm going to be proactive and not reactive.  I can do this with the strength of God as my shield I can change my behavior today and we can work through this hump.

Are you struggling today?  Lean on God with me.  He can get you through anything.  I know my struggles are small compared to some but no matter the size of your mountain God is there and will lead you.  Your faith in him can move mountains of any size.

I'm off now please leave me a comment letting me know what you are doing today.

With much love,

Mommaraff

My boys with their chocolate almond milk moustaches :)


Update:  It's 12:38 and we are done with our brunch now, the room is clean and we are heading into nap time.  We kept our cool and their behavior is much better!  Pumpkin is exhausted for some reason and I hope he takes a good nap.  After nap time we will be reading our book.  I'm so glad we are working on this!

Change is on the Horizon

I was thinking that I really ought to stop posting on my blog so late!  After an entire day with the children, animals, homeschool, and the myriad of everything else and everyone else I deal with/do I really seem unable to type./spell!  I have been reading over some of my posts (after someone comments I try to read my posts to see what they saw and what they are referring to specifically) and I need to type earlier my brain shuts down a lot sooner then I post.  Spell check can only do so much.  Another thing that I have been thinking about is changing up my blog.  I have just been updating everyone on our life over here but I'd like to do more (maybe it's my writers heart or maybe my short attention span...anyways..).  I'd like to really let you guys in on my struggles as a parent, homeschooler, mother, and some of the many other hats I wear.  This might be where I lose some of you readers as whats in my heart is God and I'm going to try to relate and create my life more around him.  I really need to work on that.  I need to see my life more from God's perspective!  I've been a christian for well all of my life except I have not lived as one all the time.  There was high school when my baby sister died and I went of the deep end with depression and some aggression (we'll not mention the Harley shirts and baggy jeans!).  I blamed God and tried to run away from him while he with his patience just kept gently tugging me back.  It's so true no matter what he never lets go.  There have been other times...times I am to embarrassed to even mention.  No matter what we are human and we can get ugly no one is immune to the power and temptation of ugly!  Ugly is what we call the actions our children make that we cringe at like the typical child's "harrumph" at the thought of not getting their way and we say "that was a really ugly sound you need to change that and use your words"  Ugly is what I think sometimes when I am not getting my way and ugly is what I sometimes say in the heat of a moment.  I have been ugly.  I hope to grow and to become stronger so that I can resist the temptation of ugly.  I am so glad that he never lets me go!  

 So welcome to my crazy life and my soon to be revamped blog!  I am going to try to change the top and some buttons to make it more visually appealing also.  I can't wait!  As a side note for those who do just want to read what has been going on in my life as I have been doing, I will still be adding in an extra post to do just that.  How I will do it is the question.  Whether it will be weekly or daily still I am unsure so stay tuned.

Have a great night and I will be seeing you shortly!