Camper and Remembering 9-11

It's been a busy day moving into the fifth wheel with my three boys and going through some of my boxes.  Gotta get some space and stretch.  It'll be interesting.  I'm still looking for a home to rent so if anyone hears of one thats in my price range let me know :).  In some ways I wish I hadn't jumped on the house so soon I'd still have my duplex.  At the same time I am so happy to not have the neighbors that I did before.  Trying to live with a pot spot light shining in my window all night, people cussing and yelling all hours of the day and night, them blowing up a propane tank next to my house and shaking it with the blast, spitting on my downstairs windows, and all the other things they did was more than I wanted.  What kind of example do I want to set for my children?   What kind of examples do I want them to encounter day after day?  I'd rather live with my loud rambunctious family than in that duplex any day.  Homeschool in a camper anyone?  Well the boys think it'll be great like a great big camping trip except you get to go to grandmas for the bathroom, showers and dinner lol. 

I spent time today remembering those that the world lost on this day all those years ago and my friend Ryan that died from cancer just the other day ago.  I hope you all spent time remembering 9-11 we will never forget!

I Don't Know

I was at my mothers house one day just lazing about with her on the couch when she came across an add for a house in my price range so we went off to look at it.  It was a hard to find the house and when we did we decided it was ok not the greatest but it had potential.  We went to the local real estate office to see if they could tell us of any other rentals in the area and what the area was like.  The lady inside said that they don't do rentals but what was it we were looking for after telling her she said well I do have a house for rent if you would like to see it I could show it to you.  So we went down and looked at the house.  It was perfect so we said we would take it.  It was only her first day back to work since her ex husband father to their three children and still her friend just died in a self drunk driving accident.  She was no longer going to move into the house she had recently been thinking about it even though their original plan was to rent it out  but She thought she could have it ready by the first so we put in our notice at our apartment and began packing.  Within the week we were moved out and into my parents garage awaiting our home.  Two days before the first she informed us that she was going to the funeral out of state and would not be back for two weeks and so the house would not be ready for another 30 days.  So we have been awaiting her call...a few days ago I broke down and called her she said she had just gotten back a few days before and is working on some things she would get back to me in a few days....I still have not heard from her.  I don't know if this is going to happen or not which makes me sad I was really looking forward to my own space and a yard for the boys, a vegetable garden, and swing set not to mention a laundry area no more dragging our laundry around...which technically I have recieved all that here at my parents...except for the space of my own.  But really I want my house  how much longer is it going to take...is it happening why wont she just tell me something.  Its all very fustrating.

Life

We are working at figuring out the job situation and most of the panic is gone from the initial shock.  I have researched and researched trying to find different job opportunities  form working at home and working part time and new jobs for Brian and I think we will have this problem solved soon.

Changes Unforseen, Direction Unknown

               Brian got notified this morning that his hours are being cut he will now work four days a week.  I don't know what this means for our family yet.  I feel a little invisible right now.  Invisible to God and my friends and family because it seems like everyone goes into the do what you have to mode without thinking yet about my feelings involved in it all.  This means that we can't afford our apartment so yes I know something has to be done I understand but can we all just take a moment to let me digest it and think it through and maybe even come to a plan on my own?  I need a little time to get use to the solution ideas and decide which ones work best for our family.

Brennen is sick yet again

               Brennen was really sick at the end of February with pneumonia, bronchitis, double ear infections, severe dehydration, and the doctor thought a little RSV even though the test came back negative.  My baby was hooked up to IVs and all sorts of monitoring wires that checked his heart rate and oxygen levels.

Third Child Syndrome

                      There's a moment when children are talking to you and you look at them like what could they possibly be talking about?  Aidan came to me a moment ago asking if I have given Brennen a brownie...a brownie?  Its not even lunch time yet... 

Long Time No Type

Wow I didn't realize that I have been gone so long.  Good thing I am back.  Right now I am at my inlaws because we are having blizzard like weather and it would be way to dangerous to go home..yes in California it does snow for those who still believe that we live in a constant state of sunshine and happiness.

Change of Plans

(Brian's aunt)

Yesterday we were suppose to bring my husbands aunt to San Fransisco to fly back to Hawaii. I spent Sunday night preparing for the trip. Since all the gas was to be paid for we decided to make a day of it. I cooked noodle salads and hard boiled eggs, sliced some Gouda cheese, and loaded up the cooler.

The end of MOPS for the year

Today was my last day of the year at MOPS. MOPS stands for Mother of PreSchoolers. It's a group of mothers that get together hang out and talk motherhood we also have guest speakers and breakfast. Our children are looked after by a group of women volunteers and they do such a good job. Today they had the children sing a song for us. It was so cute to see our children on stage singing and doing a little dance for us. We each got a flower pot with a few flowers in it in celebration of what we had accomplished this year. My accomplishments included homeschooling my five year old, getting our own place and giving birth to our third son. I look back over the year and it's so interesting to see the changes in every ones lives. The pregnant mommas have given birth, the newborns are now teething, new moms are pregnant, and some moms are graduating out of the preschool stage and we will miss them. Sometimes it makes me sad to think about all the changes and to see the children grow so much. I know one day I too will graduate and I will love to see the men they become but boy will I miss my little children. I will miss the bugs, dirt, lovingly picked flowers with no stems, tears, puppies, their little sayings, and I will miss the fridge art. I will miss everything even the things that make me nuts now. But life goes on and so will I one day it will be my turn to graduate and I will have wonderful stories to tell.

The Boys First Food Fight

May 20

We got up yesterday my husband was at work already I got Aidan and Oen some cereal and decided to go clean up their room. I heard a lot of noise going on in the kitchen so I went out to check on them and their cereal was all over the table and the floor. I told them to clean it up now or they were going back to bed. I went back to their room and began to clean again. I had to tell the boys several times to get back to cleaning it up. I heard some one banging on the outside door so I went back out there to tell them to clean. I was very mad at this point and so I yelled clean this up now you boys know better than to throw food what where you thinking and Aidan says, "Well it wasn't even fun anyways mom so we're so sorry." He said it so matter of factly and like that just explain and took care of everything he went right back to work as I smiled to myself. Where do the children get these things? They say the funniest things and make me smile despite my anger, sadness, or pain.

April and may

April ended bitter and confusing. We didn't know where we were going to turn. People in our loose circle were accusing us of things we would never do and we had no job. Bri finally found one at an Alzheimer place fifteen minutes from home.