Sun Kissed Sky

Sun Kissed Sky
The sunrise kissed clouds by our house

Saturday, November 6, 2010

Just a Few of my Favorite Links

Ok today I am going to post some of my favorite sites enjoy :)

  1.  Newest fav site:
  2. Reader
  3. Free online Book site
  4. Family fun
  10. Free Audiobooks
  12. Ideas worth spreading interesting talks by remarkable people
  13. A thesaurus
  14. You may be surprised I was
  15. Translation fun
  17. Learn for free about anything
  18. Find family friendly sites here
  19. Free toy printables gotta go look to know what I mean
  20. Looking for some truth check here
  21. Strange site
  24. Check out what patents people have put in for I'm sure you'll find some laughs
  25. I'm not a dad but I like this site and I want to get the book
  26. Read what some stranger is thinking, doing or feeling interesting for sure

Thats pretty much it my favorite sites that I can think of and link right now next I might post what blogs I've been reading :)  If you get time check these out and have fun let me know what you think of some of them.

First Post in November What did I learn this year

Ahhh first post in November maybe this month will go a lot better for posts don't hold your breath though lol.  I had a busy month in October.  There was my in laws and parents anniversary's, Brennen turned two and I turned 27, Halloween, and a bunch of other things.  So what did this last year of life teach me hmm... I'm not sure probably not enough.  I feel like I wasted this past year.  I can't really remember anything that I've done that was worth anything....except taking care of my children which I know is a big deal it's just that there feels like there should be more another year is gone off of my life and I didn't do anything.  That includes spending down time where I just think and relax close off the working part of my brain and the distracted by electronics part and just be.  I need to just be more.  I remember as a young girl sitting for hours and just being.  I would lie in the grass and look up at the sky just feeling everything..the way the grass softly tickled me in its little dance with the wind, the wind as it swept across me off to some far away places I only dreamt of, the airplanes taking people to their loved ones and I wondered where they looking down on me?  Did they see any of it?  The farm house?  The Barn?  What were they thinking about?  I just was and I haven't done that in so long that I'm afraid I don't know how anymore.  I feel like I need a babysitter for a half hour so that I can just go be.  I could go be in the woods listening to what the trees whisper to me, feel the pine needles under my feet, wonder at the beauty as the sun is splintering down on me through the canopy.  Then I would feel rejuvenated and ready to take on more as I am centered back into my self and the world that God has made.  I wonder if this is something I could teach my children...and if so how would I go about it...individually take them or try to get them all at once to lie in the grass and listen to the crickets dancing song? 

I feel as though I kinda got off track with that topic obviously its something important to me :) so what else about this year...I did learn to just try things jump on in I'm still not that good at it but I am putting myself out there more and i am learning a lot about myself and other people.  I learned that we are all a little judgemental, we all gossip even though we think we are just talking or just helping out someone, we all are a little afraid of putting ourselves out there, and we all love someone.  Even the cranky man across the way loves something.  I learned to look into the heart of people and see their hurt and let it reflect back into me so that I can respond more lovingly then I ever would have before.  This is still a work in progress and I believe will be for the rest of my life because there are people that just rub me wrong and I know I need to see them in the love but I stubbornly just keep ignoring it maybe this year I can learn to love those that I really don't like right now.

I have learned that I still need to hug my six year old all the time because he still loves it and he needs that more than just every now and then he needs it everyday several times a day.  He gets a goofy grin and I know that All is right with him.  I want my boys to know that no matter what I will always love them and they are never to big for me to show it (embarrassing or not lol watch our teenage years :P)

I've learned that I am not a super mom and that's all right because no one is and it's good to not be alone.  There may be a mom out there somewhere who bathes her kids every night, finds time to read them several stories every night, never raises her voice, never has to chase her kids out of grandmothers trees, never has to remind them that cats don't like to have their tails pulled and dogs don't like to be hit, and if she is then star stickers to her but I'm betting she's not.  I believe that children are the iron that sharpens us we are so flimsy or to tough before kids and they come along to melt you just the right way but harden you in the right way also.

I've learned that when God is silent I need to just wait it out because he will move again but I need to wait for his time because his time is perfect and mine well mine burnt the kids cookies yesterday.

This year I hope to learn so much more than this year including how to enjoy my years more fully that doesn't mean I need more money or I need to go out more or have more stuff but I need to breath and I need to hold my family and I need to make God the center more so than ever.  I want this year to be the best so far :)

Saturday, October 23, 2010

Homeschool Choices

I always say I'll keep up on this but then life comes and I'm back to doing nothing so no promises from now on I'm just going to write when I can.  I still love homeschooling but I'm feeling a bit lost there are so many things I wanted to do and now I'm just not sure when to do them.  I was thinking that something was to old for him but turned out now he's behind in it.  We joined a charter school and they want him to start persuasive writing assignments in the first grade he can't read yet.  So I'm wondering where does the we are going to wait for that and it's time to do this now come in?  Do I just say hey we aren't going to be doing that this early in the year while she possibly gives me a dirty look or do I just try to fit it in somewhere?  It's easier and yet harder to be in a charter.  It's no longer about what we want to do and I somehow have to fit in my own school ideas and their homework they would like us to do.  The easier part is it takes the guess work out of where he should be and gives me free resources and materials.  I'm going to have to think about what I want to do for next year go it alone and do as we please or keep going with this.

Saturday, September 11, 2010

Camper and Remembering 9-11

It's been a busy day moving into the fifth wheel with my three boys and going through some of my boxes.  Gotta get some space and stretch.  It'll be interesting.  I'm still looking for a home to rent so if anyone hears of one thats in my price range let me know :).  In some ways I wish I hadn't jumped on the house so soon I'd still have my duplex.  At the same time I am so happy to not have the neighbors that I did before.  Trying to live with a pot spot light shining in my window all night, people cussing and yelling all hours of the day and night, them blowing up a propane tank next to my house and shaking it with the blast, spitting on my downstairs windows, and all the other things they did was more than I wanted.  What kind of example do I want to set for my children?   What kind of examples do I want them to encounter day after day?  I'd rather live with my loud rambunctious family than in that duplex any day.  Homeschool in a camper anyone?  Well the boys think it'll be great like a great big camping trip except you get to go to grandmas for the bathroom, showers and dinner lol. 

I spent time today remembering those that the world lost on this day all those years ago and my friend Ryan that died from cancer just the other day ago.  I hope you all spent time remembering 9-11 we will never forget!

Sunday, August 22, 2010

I Don't Know

I was at my mothers house one day just lazing about with her on the couch when she came across an add for a house in my price range so we went off to look at it.  It was a hard to find the house and when we did we decided it was ok not the greatest but it had potential.  We went to the local real estate office to see if they could tell us of any other rentals in the area and what the area was like.  The lady inside said that they don't do rentals but what was it we were looking for after telling her she said well I do have a house for rent if you would like to see it I could show it to you.  So we went down and looked at the house.  It was perfect so we said we would take it.  It was only her first day back to work since her ex husband father to their three children and still her friend just died in a self drunk driving accident.  She was no longer going to move into the house she had recently been thinking about it even though their original plan was to rent it out  but She thought she could have it ready by the first so we put in our notice at our apartment and began packing.  Within the week we were moved out and into my parents garage awaiting our home.  Two days before the first she informed us that she was going to the funeral out of state and would not be back for two weeks and so the house would not be ready for another 30 days.  So we have been awaiting her call...a few days ago I broke down and called her she said she had just gotten back a few days before and is working on some things she would get back to me in a few days....I still have not heard from her.  I don't know if this is going to happen or not which makes me sad I was really looking forward to my own space and a yard for the boys, a vegetable garden, and swing set not to mention a laundry area no more dragging our laundry around...which technically I have recieved all that here at my parents...except for the space of my own.  But really I want my house  how much longer is it going to it happening why wont she just tell me something.  Its all very fustrating.

Friday, June 4, 2010


We are working at figuring out the job situation and most of the panic is gone from the initial shock.  I have researched and researched trying to find different job opportunities  form working at home and working part time and new jobs for Brian and I think we will have this problem solved soon.

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

Changes Unforseen, Direction Unknown

               Brian got notified this morning that his hours are being cut he will now work four days a week.  I don't know what this means for our family yet.  I feel a little invisible right now.  Invisible to God and my friends and family because it seems like everyone goes into the do what you have to mode without thinking yet about my feelings involved in it all.  This means that we can't afford our apartment so yes I know something has to be done I understand but can we all just take a moment to let me digest it and think it through and maybe even come to a plan on my own?  I need a little time to get use to the solution ideas and decide which ones work best for our family.

Friday, May 28, 2010

Brennen is sick yet again

               Brennen was really sick at the end of February with pneumonia, bronchitis, double ear infections, severe dehydration, and the doctor thought a little RSV even though the test came back negative.  My baby was hooked up to IVs and all sorts of monitoring wires that checked his heart rate and oxygen levels.

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

Third Child Syndrome

                      There's a moment when children are talking to you and you look at them like what could they possibly be talking about?  Aidan came to me a moment ago asking if I have given Brennen a brownie...a brownie?  Its not even lunch time yet... 

Saturday, January 23, 2010

Long Time No Type

Wow I didn't realize that I have been gone so long.  Good thing I am back.  Right now I am at my inlaws because we are having blizzard like weather and it would be way to dangerous to go home..yes in California it does snow for those who still believe that we live in a constant state of sunshine and happiness.